I am sitting at a Starbucks in Cologne just waiting for my flight. Currently there is 6 hours until departure. I got almost all the things on my to-do list done, I am pretty satisfied. Sofia and I moved out yesterday and all of my earthly belongings are stored around friends places - Except for my kite gear, guitar and laptop . I am looking forward to this.
I am reading a book called 'Thinking Through Craft' which has been inspiring. Especially the chapter on 'amateurism' . Did you know that it origins from latin and means 'lover of'? It is interesting how amateur art is frowned upon from the established art scene when the people making it basically do it for no other interest than. . I guess the love of making art. That is a pretty darn good vantage point in my opinion. Anyway, it is often decorative and sofa-pieces and without any edge what so ever and with an emphasis on Craft rather than Ideas and I guess that is why it is so terrible. Also there is a lot written on feminism and why knitting and pottery-painting and all that have such a low status. It is interesting definitely, but I just can not relate to it.
I have a hate-love relationship to the art world and all its premonitions and rules. On one hand I am curious whether if I can fake it , on the other hand I am extremely dissatisfied that it has come to that. Am I really that much of a pleaser that I want to let go on my own opinions just for the sake of other people? Is it for other people or am I just enjoying playing the game? I have no idea.
This text is not really thought through is it? Well, I have started writing now at least, more to come. I need to learn to talk about my own things way better than I do now. I need to start accepting that it is art and not just 'things'. I need to build up a vocabulary in english to when I am presenting my things. Oups, art. I need to figure out what it is about.
