Had a day at school that rocked. I was speaking to nothing short but 3 different artists about my own stuff (my oeuvre apparently). I had one of these moments where you in a very short time get very far. Amazing that I've spent so much time painting without realizing the quality in the ideas (or lack of 'fcourse). I'm pretty excited to get started at new stuff now - I had to reconsider a lot of different things. Not that I think the stuff I've been working at is complete shit - I've just come to mind with that it's time to take it to the "next step" -not quite sure what that is though, but I'm ready for next chapter.
I've decided to try my luck at the art academies. I've been contemplating for a while but now I'm pretty sure that it's the direction I want to go in. It is cool that I'm at two different schools that are both preparatory for the academies. The application dates are all in spring so there's plenty of time to make lots of new shit. I've been concerning about whether I was ready to start next year, but I'm pretty sure that it's gonna be okay (if I get in that is). Last year I tried applying for design school, but only half hearted - I had just gotten the news about the brain tumour, and that kinda took up loads of thinking time around then. My biggest concern now is, if it's too soon to start school. I'm still very concerned that if I only have few years left I'll regret spending them going to school. On the other hand it's probably not impossible to take gap years and spend the time doing dumb shit.. Anyways, it is not the end of the world if I don't get in at any academy - I'll just have another year of fun-time (it's a win-win).
The last couple of weeks I've been partying pretty hard, now I feel like being a bit serious again. For some reason I've been eating crap take-away food exclusively - time for a change at that point as well.
