I started out the blog shortly after being told that I have a brain tumor. I had planned to go travelling and those plans were wrecked, so I started the blog as "Something To Do" now that my life had taken a new and very unwanted direction. The first posts were pretentious and artsy, but I've realized, that to keep posting I must keep the blog honest. The blog is meant as somewhere to post what I am working on right now, and since what I am doing is not as great, artsy or professional as I would like it to be - I simply need to upload it anyway. I need to keep the blog alive as the first priority. It is meant as a sort of an insight into the process, and much more as a tool to help myself get better than it is meant as a portfolio. The uploads in the last couple of weeks up have mostly been links to other peoples work, but since I have not gotten much work done myself, I guess thats a vital part of the process as well.
At the moment I spend a lot of time in a painting studio. Most of the time I am slacking but I have also managed to get some ideas onto some canvases. I got 8 pretty big canvases, none of them finished yet, but the idea is to upload them as I go.
Yesterday I payed the tuition fee for a art school located at Nørrebro. It’s 6 months now that I have a pretty good idea how to spend. I want to keep painting, but I want to start painting in oil. Secondly I want to experiment with video and different other medias. Plan is to keep the blog alive as documentation at least until December. If I end up surfing the internet, partying or kite surfing instead - well then I must post pictures and words about that instead. A virtually accessible diary. If it turns out that the tumor cells in my brain have mutated into cancer - well then the blog turns into the story about that.
Basically I have decided to make the blog personal. Critique could be that such an openness is shame-full to watch - where is your dignity human?. On the other hand, if the blog gives me just the slightest feeling of fulfillment then what is lost? It’s not like I am forcing you to read it.